i love the feeling of being in love. it makes me happy, it's new, exciting, extraordinary, no words can explain the exact feeling of someone who is in love. it's the reason why you wake up every morning with a smile on your face. the reason why you are in a good mood while everybody is not. the reason why you breath and live each day of your life to the fullest.
however, not everyone is lucky enough to find their love right away. nightmares come along the way. from time to time you'll have your heart broken.
i've been broken and i guess i still am. i have given my heart to someone whom i thought i'll end up with, whom i thought i'll spend the rest of my life with and to someone whom i thought i'll have a happy ending with. but every thing fall into pieces, everything was suddenly a room full of nothing. a dark, cold room with no one but myself. i was scared, i was so alone, all i can do is shout but it seems like no one can hear me. i end up crying and crying and crying 'till i can no longer shed a tear. i took a deep breathe, look up and stop crying. what's the point of crying if he, himself doesn't care anymore? there's no more sense of crying. nothing would happen if i won't move on.
i have loved again, i have cared a lot again, i have given enough again. and once again i end up being broken.
this time i have to be wiser. i couldn't afford to be left behind again. i'm scared of getting lost in that dark room all by myself again. i'm soooo tired of having everything done all over again. i'm afraid to fall in love and give everything once again cause i fear that if it happen, i may no longer have a heart to give cause i've given it all and nothing is left for me....
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